I don’t usually do new years resolutions.
When I do, they are never made with very much conviction.
But on Dec 31 2012 I made six. I numbered them, put them out there on Facebook and meant it.
1. Make
2. Thrift
3. Never spend more than I have to.
4. Learn something new as often as possible
5. Say what I think more often and bottle up less
6. Accept that you don’t always fit in and be ok with that.
When I set these down I had not decided to start writing and I had not really planned how I was going to achieve these vague, open-ended resolutions. But I did know that I was going to do it.
The decision to start writing a blog a couple of months later made sense as it covered all the bases.
At first people I knew and loved sort of looked askance at me, not really sure what I was doing or trying to achieve. In fact I wasn’t really sure myself and felt almost apologetic when I posted my early pieces.
I am a can’t do kind of girl. I have always tried to find reasons not to do things, always worried about how I will be judged and always assuming the worst.
Blogging has opened my eyes to the fact that, maybe I do have something small to give. That people are not as quick to pass judgement as I always expect and that I do have a voice and an opinion. It has given me a confidence in interacting with people that I had somehow lost years ago.
My world has opened in ways that I hadn’t expected. I have made more new friends in the last 12 months than I have made in the last 12 years and I have re-connected with old acquaintances.
Weirdly coming to accept that I don’t quite fit has kind of freed me of an over cautiousness and awkwardness that has held me back in the past.
This year has been a tough year but blogging has given me a structure, a focus and forced me to be positive where I would otherwise feel stunned into silence.
As for learning something new as often as possible….
I have taught myself to do this for a start. Just working out how to add a link to a post was a challenge to begin with. But I have done it.
I have also learned that no one is perfect. Kirsty Allsop hit an all time low when she tied dyed pants last week.
Leather look jeans are not comfortable. I need to sit down more than I used to so wearing trousers that don’t allow you to do this is folly. Exchange for a sensible jumper.
I have learned that I am a very bad waitress.
I have taught myself to upcycle a Bureau and made over a desk for The Bo. I have re-purposed old bedding
I have made gifts of chocolate and roses and maps.
This blog won’t win awards or change anyones life. It is not the biggest or the best but it is mine and I love it.
All in all I think I have achieved what I set out to do on 31st Dec 2012. Lets see what 2014 brings.
If you have taken the time to read, I hope you enjoyed it and thankyou for stopping by
Merry Christmas and a Happy new year XX
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